fufufu, wanted to post what I bought today




I'm in love with the white one, so comfy and warm, it's my xmas present from my parents :3

ah, also...dunno if I've ever written about it but....as you see from my bed me has a thing for HK....yeah at my age o.o;;
so here's the pic I couldn't not take today XD



that brings me back to Milan and the 2 floors HK store we found *-* (I actually took the pic to bother a friend of mine that despise it xD)
Here is my treasure from the matsuri, I brought it home from Venice today :D

haha, nearly two months I didn't write anything...
I'm sorry, whether you read the nonsense I write here or not, I'm sorry.
I've been thinking a lot of negative things and filling my blog with gloomy/depressed posts, well, I really didn't feel like it. I actually hate showing my weak side, I hate looking pitiful, I'm doing it already with the people near me since you can read it on my face and I can't do anything about it, and that's enough.

( So, if I have to write something happy, that would be the Nihon no Matsuri I went to :D )

waaah, now I should do what I was supposed to do during this short holiday (I'm home since friday and will go back to Venice tomorrow) and didn't do at all....meaning "studying" >_>;;
I have to study chinese, memorize all the vocabulary and the characters and review the grammar plus translate the sentences we have as homework....really don't feel like it...

ah! reading a manga I found a strange colloquial form: "聞いときゃよかった"
It made me go insane but now I'm 90% sure it stands for "聞いておけばよかった", if someone could confirm it I'd be really grateful :D

now...it's time to open some book =__=
see ya~

the exam was postponed, I took it today.
I studied a whole week for this fucking exam and still I don't even need to check the results when they'll be out: I failed.
we had two hours and two questions; the first one ok, I knew how to answer and maybe that was sufficient but the second one, shit, I didn't even get it, I felt soooo stupid. I wrote like 8 lines blabbering about something that probably isn't even related to the question....and even if it was that wasn't sufficient at all.
and if you're wondering, yes, both answers must be sufficient to pass.
so this semester I'll have to take what, 7-8 exams, lmfao. I'm doomed.


and here something funny:
a course mate:
"OMG I'm sooo stressed, I started studying after I cruised the first two weeks of july, and paused during the ten days trip to Kyoto and Tokyo in August, and after that I studied the whole time :((( "

my inner thougth:
"WHAAAAAAAAAT?!?!?! how do you fucking dare saying you're stressed, for God's sake =___="

maybe I'm only envious but it really pissed me.

like finally, my hair is back to normality ;o;
again long enough on the top not to look funny.
I was sick of having to tie it every single time I had to go out :S

I feel like I'm back to be myself... and this made me realize how important I consider my image; even though I'm always the 1st saying (and thinking too) how the inner personality is more important and blablabla I'm still so insecure .__.;;
oh well...here I am back to myself xD;;




ah, tomorrow is the day...and I foresee a huge failure again T___T

see ya~

I wanted to post it way sooner but with my old mobile I coundn't take a clear pic of it :\ ...it's very random anyway XD;;

I bought this nail polish in May, I've had been longing for a dark purple one like this for a long time so, as soon as I saw it I went asjhsdfkjkjkjsljfd1!!1 lol
and only when I was home I thougth "uhm, let's see how stupidly they named this shade of colour..."

...and the answer was...



lmfao CASSIS extréme xD
that's destiny deshou~~ xD


also the Before I decay preview sounds soooooo good!! *__*
can't wait for it to be released!

here is a nice a nice exaple XD;;
my latest order arrived~


(took the pic with my new lovely phone <3)

ok, the yellow h.N lolita and one of the rockkish kitty aren't mine, but it was quite a lot of $$ anyway....crap, I'm too weak to this stuff.

eww, now back to my law book, someone save me plz >_>;;

so, after 16 days without any day off, tomorrow I can finally stay at home, looks like a mirage. I was going nervous wreck too lol
and since I'm fed up with our wonderful customers I won't talk about them and my shitty job, lalala~~~ *already gone insane*

way better is talking about the new mobile I'm going to buy :D
Lately my cell is behaving funny, it often has no range and once even connected to the internet on its own, so I'm buying a new one....after about 5 years xD;
I don't have the $$ to buy an iPhone, so I'm getting a nokia, I don't care too much about the touch screen thing, I'm thinking about getting this one

http://www.new-cell-phones.org/wp-content/uploads/2009/05/nokia-6600i-cell-phone-02.jpg

the camera is 5mp and there's 2 Gb Sd stick included, it's not that expensive and i like the design a lot. :3

then~ since I don't fit into my jeans anymore (wth, there's a pair I can't even zip up DDD: ) I've started some workout, like running every two days and doing sit-ups every day....needless to say 10 days are too few to see any changes :@
but I'll keep it going, I can't allow my ass to grow even bigger >_>;;
and I'm kinda proud of myself, I can run for 1,6 km now, without any break, I've always had like no stamina at all so, even if you think that's no big deal, for me it's a huge deal :P

well now, there are a few more things like, I found my home in Venice for my second year at uni; it's not really in Venice but in Lido of Venice, about 30 mins of water bus from the uni, but it's cheap and convenient too.
and I still have too many doubts about the second language I'm gonna study....gotta choose between Chinese and Korean; I've always had Korean in mind 'cause I think it's easier.....but I'm not that sure about it anymore .__.;;

It's kinda time to post this meme...gomen...

beware, I put pics of the Demon King aka Gackt, if you hate him just dun click~

( the pictures meme )

250 ji dekita! >D
the lucky 250th ji of my 今夏の漢字リスト is "選ぶ" that means "to choose". I like it.
everyone should be allowed to choose what the heck to do with his own life.
Even if sometimes I get paranoid and fear all my efforts will go to waste I don't think I'll ever regret choosing this path, my life now revolves around this wonderful language and I'm giving all I have to it, even if I'm drained cause of work I'm always there practicing kanji and such everyday...if only I didn't had to work this summer, grrr, I could have learnt far more.....but well, I'm still very happy with what I managed to do. :D
summing them with the previous kanji learnt during uni lessons now I know about 600 kanji *w*
Back in June I set my goal at 350 kanji for this summer but I think I'll get to memorize about 300, it's ok I think, I really couldn't have done better.
Soon I should start revising grammar too, I mean, now and then I mentally revise the rules and such but I do need a hardcore review.
I'd like to take the 3rd level of the JLPT, but I dunno if I will, not only the exam fee is really expensive, I'll also have to go to MIlan to take it...if only I could take it in Venice...

and....I have to start studying for the 2 exams I'll retake in September. like seriously, I'm lucky, very lucky, the session starts on the 1st but my exams are on the 11th and on the 16th, It's nice to see that sometimes things go my way as well. I gotta study and just get rid of them.


ps: I haven't forgotten about the meme, I'll post it as soon as I can~<3

OMG!!!!!!!!!
I can't belive it!!
I found a wonderful site where there's everything I need!!!! *_______*
Habaek, Crismon hero, kimi wa petto and cat street both english and raws *droooolz*
and a lot of other very good manga too~~~! *happy*

I know I'm an otaku and that's kinda saitei but...shikata ga nai XD
If you're one yourself just go to http://bishiehaven.blogspot.com/

I was trying to translate Kai's radio (not posting any translation cause I suck big time at it) and I came across this term: 鳥肌が立つ that means to get the goosebumps but it literally is "to grow a chicken skin".
We call that nearly the same way in italian LOL


....sorry for the randomness xD

This morning I went to the Hospital to take a blood test, I was supposed to go in April but I never had the time, back then I believed to be anemic or smth cause I was always tired, I'll see what they say ._.

now, after a few years I'm wondering about it, I finally found out what's my astrological ascendancy~
I know it's stupid and everything but the personality profile is quite accurate o.o

( read more )

I guess I should open up my books and study but I think I'll just review J grammar and try to translate someones' blogs x3
definitely not in the mood for studying~

how bad of me, yesterday I was nearly run over by a car and I didn't even post about it.
Sometimes I think it was better if it did.
I'm tiiiirrreeedddd~~~~~~ about dealing with people, about my fucking parents, about my weakness and flaws. I'm trudging and I can see depression behind the corner. Things have started to lose their meaning, when there will be no difference anymore I'll be there.
and if I had to sum up yesterday in one word the best one would be SHIT =__= worst working day EVARRR.
A law back in the '80s made all the madhouse in Italy close down but I believe we shoud reopen one here in Grado and put 80% of our customers inside and then throw the keys away.
when I say they're insane, believe me, some of them are insane for real. and the others are nervous wrecks.


Last week I had my hair cut and dyed black, dear lord, I wouldn't go to that hairdresser again even if they paid me to...
I asked for Uru's hair but got an awfully shitty cut :(((((
if you're curious I put a few pics in my lj scrapbook, there are some from before the cut too.


a positive note in these days is DIM, love the entire album exept IN THE MIDDLE OF CHAOS, too commercial...dunno, maybe I'll like it in the future. My fav are 13STAIRS[-]1 and A MOTH UNDER THE SKIN <3
I got the album today, the package is cool as always and the booklet with the pics reminded me of diru LOL
they better come to Europe again this fall or I'll bring them here by kicking their asses =.=

I'm plain exhausted, mentally I mean, I'm fed up with people, seeing how rude, ignorant and stupid they can be is so disheartening, why on earth do I have to keep smiling and being gentle, what's the point of it? my wage won't change by one cent even if don't.
no, no one told me anything but minor and not-so-minor quarrels happened to my workmates and seeing how those fucked headed customers claimed their rights when they were totally on the wrong side made me wanna go there and slap them for good, I wanted to puke all my disgust on their faces.

also, cause of exams and the concert it's like 4 weeks I don't have a day off, plus at work I don't have a fix office I go to everyday, I have to cover my workmates on their days off so I change office every day or so...the next week it's the 5th one I'm doing this =.= and I was hoping I had a fix place so I could hang some posters :(

Tomorrow and sunday I have to teach a new cashier our job, LOL, I'm so frustrated these days, my tongue is much sharper and I have some problems at preventing myself from venting it out on others being very mean...an old bad habit I can't control when I'm this tired....he'll run away calling me a bitch or smth.
ah, 2 new cashier girls run away for real after their first weekend...dunno whether laugh or cry.

Also I'm a bit disappointed at myself, I thought I would have been stronger in this period, I still haven't opened any book, I have NO will to study for the 3 exams I'll have in september...the only thing is Japanese, not grammar, that would take too many neurons LOL, kanjis memorization only, I've set my goal at 350 kanjis by the end of the summer vacation :3 (only 275 to go omg xD;)

It's a ranting post but since there's this good news of mine that I still haven't posted (shame on me) here it is:

I GOT FULL MARK ON JAPANESE EXAM~!!!

only one other person got that, I'm so proud of this result :)
I wanted to write a post regarding the 2 days I had the exam but at this point dunno if I will, but I couldn't miss on boasting about it XD
I got the news on the same day of diru's live, 17.06.2009 is gonna be one of the best days in my life.

so I have to just endure it for 2 months and than uni will start again.

well, I turned what, 21?
I feel at least 5 years younger, lol


...I don't get why everyone is so concerned about birthdays, I don't think it's much different from the day before and the one following. o.o;




ps: my post regarding diru's live and the exam will be posted soon~ (though you probably don't give a crap about them LMFAO)

Since I started working the weather hasn't been good, just a few days were sunny but none of them was truly hot, must be a blessing for me ♥ lol

Today I took 2 pics at my workplace, that's what I face for 6.40 hours per day now, and next week too.

and that's the view from the entrance of the "office"


I wanted to take some more pics of the beach after my turn ended but I was late (cause of 2 people that came to buy a 15-days umbrella ticket 5 minutes before the closing time =_= ) so I forgot :|

here I post the crappy gaze chibis I killed time with~

I actually wanted to draw Aoi with a spade in one hand, a bucket on the head and a towel knotted around the shoulders, to give him his typical "I'm da boss" aura, but I had no confidence it would turn out well XD

going to study for Tuesday's and Wednesday's exam now...

baibai

yesterday I came back home, there are no more lessons and while riding the train I was thinking how all seemed just not real.
It's difficult to think that from today I won't be meeting my friends every day and have fun going to Japanese lessons, and it's even sadder that next year I won't have anymore my sensei, the first time I realized this I started crying like a baby, thanx god I was at home LOL
I remember back in October/November when seeing second year students that were sitting near us we asked ourselves why the heck they were coming to our classes XD I understand now :)
next year l too will go to some of the 1st year lessons for sure XD

Yesterday at the station me and a friend of mine kinda put on a show lmfao
Me and 3 of my friends (Veronica, Angela and Alessia) were saying goodbye and after stepping away to go towards our trains Veronica said: "so...see ya again on the 9th for the exam... ._.", in that instant I suddenly FULLY realized that after that I won't see them again in 3 months so I looked at Angela and she looked at me at the same time and after a sec we ran towards each other to have a hug ♥ I believe it was a nice show *nods* XD then of course we all hugged and said byebye again :3
.....I feel so fuxxing lucky to have become friends with them!!!! I love you all!!!!! ♥♥♥

so, on 9th and 10th June I'll take my Japanese exam, on the first day the writing part (grammar, kanji and translation) and on the other the speaking one *shivers*
we've done a tone of grammar, we don't use the genki book but I downloaded it out of curiosity and just to give and idea we did all from vol 1 and about 1/4 from vol 2 >.>;;
and I believe we'll be tested on kanjis for both the semester so yey there are 350 of them, but counting all the compounds they must be around 400 o.o;;
What's worrying me the most are the translation from J to Italian (because we have one hour only and it's way too short, I definitely won't be able to check it a second time) and the oral exam °__°;; every time I have an interrogation I get way too tense and start blabbering the first thing that comes to my mouth :((((((
I so wish that at least it will rain, Venice was a burning hell these days =__=


oh, and today I was called from the company where I worked last year, I'm starting tomorrow, looks like I'll have no rest...


baibai




PS: sorryyyy, my English got so worse I'm ashamed of myself >.<

Guys, I think I'm in love ♥



:3


I want one so badly *>o<*

when I saw the news about Diru coming to Italy during their next Eu tour those words came at once to my mind. Without even thinking too much I thought going was impossible since in that period I have exams and my job....BUT maybe I'll be able to go! *O*
Taking a better look at the calendar I'll take my Japanese Exam during the 2nd week of June (it always takes place at the beginning of the exam session) and the next I'm going to see the most fuxxing awesome band in the world!!!
I'll have to literally beg for 2 days off, one per week, next to my weekly day off, but I think they'll accord them to me, ferial days in the first half of June are usually veeeery quiet.
And for the other exams there's always the 2nd session and September's one XD
So for now I buy my ticket and cross my fingers x>.<x